Last week Brandon yelled at me from the backseat, "mom how come you won't take the child lock off my door, dad did, why won't you? Dad is cooler."

I remained calm but inside my head was exploding to fucking pieces.  

Honestly I don't know why I keep the child lock on, I just do.  It's the last thing I have.  He's out of his five point harness, he's losing teeth, he is 10" from being taller then me all I have left is keeping his ass locked in the car so he can't run away and live his own life.  

Today driving to Brandons rookie ball opening day I was reminded about the door.  I asked my husband why he did it and he said he was tired of opening the door for him all the time.  I however don't mind opening the door which means I don't want to take the child lock off BUT I don't want dad to be cooler then me.  

So what do I do?  Do I take the lock off, or stand my ground and be the lame parent?