A big problem with me is that I have issues with sound. I have incredible hearing. I've had my hearing checked and I rate in the exceptional range. The problem with that is that I hear EVERYTHING. The second problem is that I cannot handle hearing repetitive sounds. Pens clicking, shoes tapping, balls bouncing etc. When things get really bad I cannot handle any sounds. For example; my dog itching. The sound of my dog itching drives me out of my mind. This is a huge issue because my dog has severe allergies and itches about eleven hours a day. I sleep with ear plugs in even if I am home alone because I can hear every car that passes outside, every tree branch that moves, every mouse that crawls around, EVERY. SINGLE. THING. I don't get a lot of sleep. Especially living near a freeway. If my husband taps his hand on the steering wheel in the car I freak out. I actually FREAK OUT. I get mad. If my son starts clicking his toy gun over and over and over I totally tense up and feel a break down come on. If Brandon turns on any electrical gadget I cringe. When people close cabinets and they even slightly slam it, my brain hurts. Because of that I close cabinets so gently that sometimes they don't even close all the way. But it is better then hearing the cabinet close. The sound of Ugg boots dragging around during the winter really really pisses me off. People need to pick up their feet.
To sum it up, I have massive sound issues.
So tonight I'm sitting at home in the dark in the silence trying to read. I've had a long week at work having both kids in the office making noise. Add in the kid noise to the sound of phones ringing, and the kids TV on, their DS or iPod in the background, people talking, the chickens squawking, boots dragging on the floor, doors opening, wind, and the freeway and come days end I'm just DONE. I came home tonight and had the kids go downstairs so I could read after doing the dishes. I can still hear their TV and them fighting but I am trying to handle it. Then the dog started itching. Right by my ear. I flipped out. I got up and gave him Benadryl and sat back down to enjoy the peace. That is when the damn dog went to find his chew bone. He found his bone and then laid two feet away from me gnawing and chewing and gnawing and chewing for a good ten minutes. The sound of a dog chewing on a bone, or licking totally pushes every last button. I couldn't handle it. I texted my husband telling him the sound of the dog chewing on his bone was going to actually move me to tears. My ears started ringing and I could feel actual pain in them. I finally got up and took away his bone for a while. I'm sitting here now hyper aware of every little sound with my ears still hurting, my brain tense, my jaw clenched hard and my whole being just rigid in a tense little ball of sound.
I hate this.
I wish there was a medication for this. Or some sort of relief.
I wish I couldn't hear everything.
But I can.
Does this happen to anyone else?